Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Resolution

As my afternoon eased into the doldrums
Refuting against my wishes, another fake
Tinkerbelle set forth in the Atlantic while
I rest my back on an urban replacement
Of my grandfather’s old oak chair

My ginger-cat’s purr somehow brought
The agitated afternoon back to his senses
For he scram as if to give my dusk her cue
The half-eaten faces-thus aglow manifested
 The Royal decadence of my epoch   

Her letters were resting on the pelmet
She had not written when she intends
To return to my dire lyre’s tune of vanity
And the fragrance had followed me still;
In hushed conversations, they had given
Me many a name; much to my amusement
The streets clowned around to mock
My conscious evasions from neon lights
And then they led me on to dimmer
Escapades- the indecisions of younger days
The days marred by eloquence of youth

As I greet another failed endeavor
To revive her scent from what was left
Of her belongings and her vibratos on
Dusty shelves; in leftover hours I trot
Further to see the face of her man in
Sepia photographs that she left behind

I have known the man from time-long lost
I have seen the man creep in my epiphanies
Heard his laugh in digressions and dreams
Of braided humor fit for the aristocrats
With divine fortune and eyes of disbelief
He was never the Fool you see
He could never have been the Fool you see?

With eyes fixated at the photograph did
I pave the path for the sagging proposition
To belch out the fusty question that had
Trailed me in sickness and in health; and
Those voices would hiss “Why did you cease?”
Then the incredulous laugh would probe
“Why did you cease?”

Their disbelief will rub against the night
To revolt will I arise, not to go on another
Victory march; for I am immune to their
Insidious needs; Alas! Tonight they draw
Me in their politic plea; but I am simple man
Wait; they do not seem to agree

The photograph hits the ground to make
A sullen sound for me to react or at the
Least remember the virility of the past
Remember the flesh and the lives of men
The exploits of war and the smell of those dames
Her letters are ruffled by the wind and
The chimes unanimously revolt; now I
Remember the man; the man whom I have
Been meaning to forget; the man who was
Behind this digression; her man
He had lived here under this roof once
Oh! Do not ask where he is and do not
Tell where he might be

Thus the Fuhrer pulled the trigger for one last time

And Sputnik took another lap in search of the damp earth. 

Monday, March 23, 2015

Cameo and Nulliet - back from the dead

Act IV Scene I

At the end of the road, right in front of the great clock with some god’s face engraved on the dial.
They had broken up for the 4th time six months back but with Cameo’s feigned luck and a tough kick-in-the-balls from his rebound, they are in the same city.

Cameo : I guess it’s time to go

Nulliet [cozying up on the park bench in an entirely different city] : How I wish you never had to depart?

Cameo : Well, seriously? You talk like our creator trying to fit  fancy words in the most inappropriate places [looking dejected. Putting up that prudent face like Robinson Crusoe or Jason Statham… anything that befits the imagination]

Nulliet : If I ever meet that bastard or fuck-turd or maybe a tad extremely closer, rather bordering on the line of being an asshole – I will ask him why us? We never did him any harm [antagonistic to put things mildly]

Cameo [dumbfounded]: Oh My God… who put so much of brains in you? I mean now I definitely wish to meet him and you do sound like him on an entirely different level. [Smug smile… peace prevails]

Nulliet : Gone is the era when humour was his preferred genre. We sort of kept his circle laughing. I doubt whether he is still within its circumference [classic contemplation]

Cameo [face-palm… as expected, trying to live the last few moments before Garfield’s Monday] : Darling, we will not see each other in this week. Do you get that? You have a night shift and I really need to reach office by nine. Can we talk about more important things? [A little needy here]

Nulliet [getting the point since 2010] : Yes dear [looks at the clock and spaces out]

Cameo [bewildered] : You’re lost. What is wrong?? [The question thrown in a rather hysterical way]

Nulliet [playfully] : Darling, why don’t you calm down or do you need help here? [the twinkling eyes twinkling since four years]  

Cameo [delighted] : Don’t you always get it?

Nulliet[twinkle twinkle twinkle] : Do I not cater to your Sunday night blues ‘MoMo’ in my own naughty way? [mock sulk] You never understand only…

Cameo [waiving the victory flag] :  You know…

Nulliet[cutting him off] : No.. [infuriated] I don’t want to. You come back after six months and… [burying her face in her palms] what was I even thinking.. Men like you…. [sobbing]

Cameo [the gravity of the gratifying moment needed some of his theatrics] : You are absolutely right. [the classic pitch] I deserve this sort of treatment. I have taken after the worst architecture of man. In the past six months I have even realized that your beauty has transcended all the divine boundaries known to mankind. [produces a handkerchief like an English gentleman]

Nulliet [making sure that the handkerchief needs to be burned later] : So, so you think I have surpassed Juliet[her sister who apparently heads the missing person list] ?? [classic puppy eyes]

Cameo [unflustered by the rather known tone] : Of course. Six months have had an adverse effect on you my love. [inching closer to her] Should we continue with some wine?

Nulliet [apprehending since 2010] : Dushtu[and with an evil grin]

The rest is nesting on the lush green gardens of the Garden City and dangling from the ever more lush green trees of the Pervert’s mind.

P.S : Let’s get back to the start

P.P.S : P.S is no longer followed by an “I Love You” rather displaced by “love is blindness”



Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Corridors

Dear Prudence, 


Your lack of speech was not appreciated this time. Well, your ever changing address is another pressure point in some adipose infested part of my body. 
To tell you the truth, truth seems a little too acrid these days. Hence, I invest upon fonder means of vacant entertainment. 

Yes, times, they're changing. 

There is a piece of news. The sort which has already being partially imprinted upon the mind by unavoidable facts or coincidences and needs a mere confirmation to be rendered valid.

Yes, I am back to my former place of dwelling. There is a unique sense of liberation and all that jazz. To cut the crap-cake, it’s just a trick of the presumptuous mind. All we need is an invasion of that carefully curtained corridor which is best left to the onlooker's imagination. If like a pungent fart, someone gushes into it, the grass automatically burns green on the other side. All the more, being a fanciful and phony stoic, I will never listen to the hungriest of tides.

In flute induced corridors did I find a recluse looking for a way out? You patted him, didn't you?
Did you ever bother to utter a single syllable? You are a diplomat, ain't you? You smelt it, like a seagull smells carrion. There was winter in you veins. You scripted it. You scripted my March before January could smirk.

These days, when I am left to what I the best, i.e., loathe, I visualize corridors. Even when I am writing this letter (not to see if you're better), I think of you in a corridor, waiving to an obnoxious neighbour.
You waiving to your neighbour. How can I even think on such material terms? Touché.

Started with sills that too rusty, now I have this ardent need of landing up in a corridor. Everything seems so tranquil in a corridor.

However, each corridor is excruciatingly empty if the doors are closed.


Regards,
Abani

Thursday, January 15, 2015

The Infinite Causeway

The infinite causeway allured me
Aided by her dissolving sun’s lisp;
On wings of forlorn words, we rode
Into the ambivalence of the night

Haunting us were bruised echoes
Of relics that endured time’s betrayal
And of youth that was sucked out
To accommodate the daunting wisdom

Embers of her seasonal vagaries
Are well guarded in the archaic urn
Crescendos of her country songs
Are well guarded in her unkempt glares
Lurching alongside, I awaited
The indolent intermittent glance
As the half-dried brook struggled
To meet the weary sea

We stumbled upon the night’s womb
With the burdening moonless-sky
Pressing the weight of vacant innuendos
On our exhausted shoulders
And she glanced with the Gladiola’s bloom
To answer famished eyes and husked sighs
The faraway brook squealed past
To proclaim the end

“The clouds showed me the way”
“I followed the vagabond’s gut”
“Now that we are here”
“The canvas seems vain”
“It was never the causeway”
“It was the quench”
“For epochs have I wailed"
“Should we depart?”
“Let’s wait for the arrogant dawn”
“Rekindling regrets?”
“No.”
“Then?”
“I want to see the enslaved animal”

As the nakedness of the brook
Crept slowly in the line of our vision
And the flushed sky bellowed
I stood there ablaze in her stare
As she slowly withdrew

In that ludicrous causeway
Some spirit still enamors
The embers of that brook